yea, I almost am too happy to be sad right now, almost too satisfied to realize that I lost some things.
its ok though- because I'm gaining too, and I see that. and there's this moment in life- when you realize, finally all the bad stuff if over- finally I've come around this bend and life can only be good from here on out.
so after 5 months of loving someone that didn't love me back I put my head down for the sec, turned around and when I looked up after just a couple steps there was someone waiting there with arms wide open ready to love me- and I am pretty positive that no one is ever that lucky. I understand what there is to be grateful for.
Its ok though- and even if he did love me back, he won't admit it, and any guy who doesn't fight for it, isn't a guy that's worth it in the end.
I'm ready to begin the journey to my happy ending. I am ready to listen to the spirit of God, and follow his path undeniably- I'm ready to just listen and obey- because I trust that he will put the right people in my path at the right time, and If I work at what is before me- if I do what I know I need to- only good things can come to pass in the end. I understand that everything isn't rainbows and sunshine, because with out the rain- the sunshine couldn't make a ranbow. I know that much.
in all things there must be a compound- they knew that 600 yrs before christ came- I know that too.
its just not gonna be so bad anymore.
Its tough when you lose a family member, when someone dies and you don't just feel your pain, but you feel the pain of everyone else that this loss has effected- when you care about people, their pain becomes your pain. and its difficult- but its not impossible, because Jesus Christ is our Savior and he loves us, and he gave us a option the give the hurt and the pain away- he gave us that choice, and all we need to do is trust him and hand it over.
