This morning I wanted to get more accomplished than I did. But after that I saw painting after painting of Christ at the Museum of Art at BYU. My heart is swollen with his incomparable example.
Spent that time with the future In-laws. They're nice. We need to get more experiences to become familiar with one another. It was good to see their perspective on Christ, on art, and on history.
I went to Kimmy and Micah's viewing today as well. My heart hurts. Their story is so tragic. I don't understand all things. I don't get why the day after their engagement they had to die. I don't get why they died on Christmas. I don't get why. The only thing I can say is, at least they are together. She was in her wedding gown.
The little girl I used to nanny for- it was her birthday party tonight. It was a difficult mood switch. We roller skated. I love her so much. She's my little bonnie boo.
today my heart was full of a lot of different thoughts and feelings. I dunno but I felt a lot of love, and a lot of hurt. Letting that hurt be overcome with love is the secret.
1.03.2011
So full.
So I'll be waking up in five hours and I'm honestly not ready to sleep. Today has been the ultimate.
Last night I had a couple come to Jesus moments. There are a couple of reasons I express my faith. First is less meaningful than the second. First, I express it because it's how I think. And its only natural to express your thoughts. Second, because I am not ashamed of it. I love God. Through all my imperfection- though there be many, in my weakened state I depend on God for all that I am, and I hope that between my honest efforts and his graces someday I might be able to stand righteously before my maker and be judged- hoping that I've expressed that love to a point that maybe, just hopefully somehow, someone else might be inspired for a quick moment. No where do I say that my efforts are large or impressive- only honest. The day I shut my mouth about my beliefs is the day my mouth doesn't work anymore- because it is central to who I am. Does this make me better? No. If anything it shows my weakness- because I can't do it without him.
I have a really good idea where I would be if it weren't for my faith. Probably exactly where I was when I was 18. Barely touching the soil.
More about how today was the ultimate. I saw light in a lovers face. Over and over and over again. If there is anything more satisfactory please tell me. I didn't put that light there. Someone else did. Seeing others exercise their faith and living in the big shoes of their potential makes my heart feel full. Watching others bear truth and seeing the light shine off of them is the most inspiring to me. Seeing how as individuals we're all loved in our fallen state- and how we each have a call that says, "So and so, my son or daughter, I love you. You were created by me. You are mine and I am yours. This is what I will do. Will you please give me your life? Will you please show me that you love me, too?"
Today I sipped hot cocoa with my best friend. Today I had story time with my best friend. Today i laughed and cried at that story with my best friend. Today I understood why bad days are worth it. I feel grateful for it all.
Why I'll express my gratitude - because someone once told me that unexpressed gratitude isn't gratitude at all.
I have one of the coolest Roomies in the world- her name is Katie. She's quickly becoming one of my closest friends. We watched the cheesy Mormon version of pride and prejudice. I realized that it has a lot of the same actors as Moving McAllister- and so Moving McAllister must be done my members. Interesting.
Guitar... oh how you're a challenge to me- But I figure if I dedicate enough time to you, someday i won't be ashamed of how I play.
Finishing the book that I started with my best friend. Goodness gracious. My eyes are opened. Growing up ruins everything. Seriously.
All good things are unseen.
Finished off the day with thoughts of whether dinosaurs roamed the earth- and if so when... and then a debate on whether or not robots have the potential to be real life or not. I proposed that they do not.
Love love lover... daydreaming ten year plans and realizing that those things can come to life.
I want you like kids want snow days and fog delays...
Last night I had a couple come to Jesus moments. There are a couple of reasons I express my faith. First is less meaningful than the second. First, I express it because it's how I think. And its only natural to express your thoughts. Second, because I am not ashamed of it. I love God. Through all my imperfection- though there be many, in my weakened state I depend on God for all that I am, and I hope that between my honest efforts and his graces someday I might be able to stand righteously before my maker and be judged- hoping that I've expressed that love to a point that maybe, just hopefully somehow, someone else might be inspired for a quick moment. No where do I say that my efforts are large or impressive- only honest. The day I shut my mouth about my beliefs is the day my mouth doesn't work anymore- because it is central to who I am. Does this make me better? No. If anything it shows my weakness- because I can't do it without him.
I have a really good idea where I would be if it weren't for my faith. Probably exactly where I was when I was 18. Barely touching the soil.
More about how today was the ultimate. I saw light in a lovers face. Over and over and over again. If there is anything more satisfactory please tell me. I didn't put that light there. Someone else did. Seeing others exercise their faith and living in the big shoes of their potential makes my heart feel full. Watching others bear truth and seeing the light shine off of them is the most inspiring to me. Seeing how as individuals we're all loved in our fallen state- and how we each have a call that says, "So and so, my son or daughter, I love you. You were created by me. You are mine and I am yours. This is what I will do. Will you please give me your life? Will you please show me that you love me, too?"
Today I sipped hot cocoa with my best friend. Today I had story time with my best friend. Today i laughed and cried at that story with my best friend. Today I understood why bad days are worth it. I feel grateful for it all.
Why I'll express my gratitude - because someone once told me that unexpressed gratitude isn't gratitude at all.
I have one of the coolest Roomies in the world- her name is Katie. She's quickly becoming one of my closest friends. We watched the cheesy Mormon version of pride and prejudice. I realized that it has a lot of the same actors as Moving McAllister- and so Moving McAllister must be done my members. Interesting.
Guitar... oh how you're a challenge to me- But I figure if I dedicate enough time to you, someday i won't be ashamed of how I play.
Finishing the book that I started with my best friend. Goodness gracious. My eyes are opened. Growing up ruins everything. Seriously.
All good things are unseen.
Finished off the day with thoughts of whether dinosaurs roamed the earth- and if so when... and then a debate on whether or not robots have the potential to be real life or not. I proposed that they do not.
Love love lover... daydreaming ten year plans and realizing that those things can come to life.
I want you like kids want snow days and fog delays...
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