Testing...

Do you ever feel like you're being prompted to do something that's completely out of the blue just to see if you'll listen to the prompting?
Well I've had quite a few of those recently. Nothing miraculous has happened because of it. and so I'm doing random whatever stuff. and saying things that I naturally wouldn't because it feels like the right thing to do/ say.
Hopefully whatever comes out of all of this arbitrariness is good for something/ somebody.

My new fascination!

SO... I have a new interest budding. I think I want to cut coupons... right? I wanna be the lady that walks away from the store getting 40 items for 3 dollars.

Maybe I'm friends with too many mom's but it's come to the point that I'm hearing of all of their bragging and I'm thinking, "Hey, why can't that be me?"

Today there was a sale on Diet Coke- YUP!
I've always thought of myself as a thrifter... but there are ladies that are professionals at this and it's extremely impressive. I want that.
So there's a summer project!

First Run

So I'm late getting started, but I blame it on the weather. It hasn't been consistently nice until now.
So I went on my first run of the season this morning and i feel like throwing up- which is a good thing I suppose.
I have a cold which makes everything worse- but I'm glad that I went. And I'm glad that I'm sweaty now. hopefully I can get into it like I have in years of the past. I really don't wanna lose any weight this year because the winter already caused me to do that.
Stress- I'm trying to beat it.

CONTROL

I hate being monitored and controlled.
Lemme be a grown up- I promise I can handle it.
I hate the fact that I'm dealing with this, still.
I hate that they won't hear me out after my multiple attempts.
I hate it when forgiveness seems like an option that's been deleted.
I hate it that people who believe in Jesus deny his powers.

I hate that communication can't be done.
Because I'm sure 90% of this is assumption and misunderstanding and 10% of it is the issue, which has been fixed but no body would ever know that because they've created much more issue than there really is.

w.ax.ing crescents. when we're supposed to be waning.

this is stupid. really stupid.

I read this in the tone of an edgy poetrist...


"Each of us will have our own Fridays—
those days when the universe itself seems shattered
and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces.
We all will experience those broken times
when it seems we can never be put together again.
We will all have our Fridays.
But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death—
Sunday will come.
In the darkness of our sorrow,
Sunday will come.
No matter our desperation, no matter our grief,
Sunday will come.
In this life or the next,
Sunday will come."
--Sunday Will Come by Elder Joseph B. Wirhlin

But really it's a prophet of god... HM.

sings and things

H.A.P.P.Y.

Things I'm grateful for:

My Job, I have the best boss ever.
My Boyfriend, I honestly have the most wonderful boyfriend ever.
My testimony, I'm so grateful that I know that christ lives and what that really means for me and everyone that I love.
Sunshine- couldn't live with out it.
Friends, I have incredible friends. Genuine, compassionate, thoughtful, caring people that I like to hear what they have to say- because they make sense.
Good Music, the perfect companion for any day.
Progression, I love living forward to the future.
Intellectuals, listening to them enlightens me.
Having my own room for a month, enough said.
Lightheartedness, makes the heavy things seem easier to hold.
Nail polish- It makes normal days feel more sophisticated.
Sisters, There is nothing more guiding than older sisters that have lived through everything you are that you can count on for support and guidance. Big sisters are what keep me right.


And to this I say, it's alright if it storms from time to time. I've got my eye centered and I'm ready to grow closer to my maker in a way that I can better understand others, and love fuller.

G. O.

the ramblings

New hair style. It's flippy outty with bangs. (growing out a pixie is balls)

I've been thinking feminist thoughts lately. I'm seeing the world objectify women everywhere I turn and I think, why? I'm thinking the reason that this is occurring is because woman allow it. They find power in being sexy. Regardless of their marital status. Sure you want to feel desireable. That's understandable. but the real problem is that when they become addicted to that desire, they lose so much more. Sad. They sacrifice their potentials to become arm candy/ trophy wife.
I've just never seen a guy movie that didn't have scandalous women in it. PA-LEASE! They are all sexxed out and it's just nasty. It encourages me to dress like an Amish person- though I won't but that's what it makes me want to do.

I wish that Satan couldn't turn things that are supposed to be good, powerful, and righteous into garbage. He has a way of doing that with every sacred, beautiful thing. He makes the righteous amazing part misunderstood and then creates a ridiculous replacement that isn't really a replacement at all.

So I've been on a shopping kick- jut because, it's spring, which is shopping season for me. And I just happened to read this verse last night, "AND I KNOW THAT YE DO WALK IN THE PRIDE OF YOUR HEARTS; AND THERE ARE NONE SAVE A FEW ONLY WHO DO NOT LIFT THEMSELVES UP IN THE PRIDE OF THEIR HEARTS, UNTO THE WEARING OF VERY FINE APPAREL, UNTO ENVYING AND STRIFES, AND MALICE, AND PERSECUTIONS, AND ALL MANNER OF INIQUITIES; AND YOUR CHURCHES YEA, EVEN EVERY ONE, HAVE BECOME POLLUTED BECAUSE OF THE PRIDE OF YOUR HEARTS"

Youch!

Good thing I'm a bargain shopper...


Just kiddin!

The truth of the matter is that material appearance is just that- MATERIAL.

Fashion is such a mixture of thoughts for me. I think it's there to express oneself from time to time and just allow that person to be unique in their own special way- but if you're dressing for comparison and for the acceptance of others due to brand or cost- that's when you know it's not necessarily what should be done.