Have you ever wanted something- so much that the time before it seems like this meaningless thing that you waste wishing for the next thing?
why do we do that? why do we skip steps- maybe I'm learning why its important to be patient. Patience doesn't just allow you to wait for something in a calm manner- but if offers experiencing the whole thing, itemized minute for minute, instead of just wasting what you've got for what you want.
Patience is a virtue.
Things are coming together, which is awesome! I'm getting super excited for things!!!! Bueno!
7.02.2011
6.25.2011
Idea/ Accomplishment
I've decided that I think its the ideas that are hard to achieve not the event.
I think anyone can do things if they set their mind to it. I think the tricky thing is the byproduct of the result. For example, a diet would make you lose weight- the the tough thing to gain from it is self control.
So its the virtues and talents that are developing- this is the hard part, this is the mortal experience. Not the graduation, or the being fit, or the clothes you wear, or the money you make, or even the accomplishments that you have- its the development of virtue.
The dependance upon the Savior to forgive. The getting to know yourself well enough to know your strengths and weaknesses. the gaining of charity.
"in all thy getting, get understanding"- Proverbs 4:7
Life's tricky- Society wants you to do things- God wants you to understand things.
I think anyone can do things if they set their mind to it. I think the tricky thing is the byproduct of the result. For example, a diet would make you lose weight- the the tough thing to gain from it is self control.
So its the virtues and talents that are developing- this is the hard part, this is the mortal experience. Not the graduation, or the being fit, or the clothes you wear, or the money you make, or even the accomplishments that you have- its the development of virtue.
The dependance upon the Savior to forgive. The getting to know yourself well enough to know your strengths and weaknesses. the gaining of charity.
"in all thy getting, get understanding"- Proverbs 4:7
Life's tricky- Society wants you to do things- God wants you to understand things.
6.16.2011
K-OS
Things that are true, that I never thought would be true: david's bridal is coming through for me with the little things and my selection- in even what I actually want isn't over priced... It's pretty impressive.
c.r.u.n.c.h. time.
I think I realized how much time I don't have today and I had a mental breakdown- but then I got into ultra dianna planner mode and I make the skeleton of how things are going to go- and I felt a lot better after my 2-3 hr tribute to roping in details.
I remembered important things in my heart today even when my head was bobbling all about- which is the most important part.
I remember that through the appropriate focused attention anything is possible.
For that, I'm grateful.
Men and Women are such different creatures- these are things that I'm learning. Different things hold value, both emotional and material. It's interesting.
two people can be so alike and so different all at the same time- thank goodness for common ground, but also thank goodness for difference or else life would be freakin boring!
c.r.u.n.c.h. time.
I think I realized how much time I don't have today and I had a mental breakdown- but then I got into ultra dianna planner mode and I make the skeleton of how things are going to go- and I felt a lot better after my 2-3 hr tribute to roping in details.
I remembered important things in my heart today even when my head was bobbling all about- which is the most important part.
I remember that through the appropriate focused attention anything is possible.
For that, I'm grateful.
Men and Women are such different creatures- these are things that I'm learning. Different things hold value, both emotional and material. It's interesting.
two people can be so alike and so different all at the same time- thank goodness for common ground, but also thank goodness for difference or else life would be freakin boring!
6.08.2011
Don't be the anti lover
Have you ever met those people that only have inauspicious things to say about love and relationships? Nobody likes that. It's sad for anyone who hears it. It doesn't matter if you're in love, or single, or wanna be in love. Relationships are precious and take care and attention. Hope is an essential ingredient to the mix if you ever wanna be successful. Perspective is everything.
Realism is also very important and itemizing wins for losses is ok to keep a grounded view- but don't be the burden giver to spread your lack of hope to the world around you. that's just sadness.
"love is eternal"- Vincent Van Gogh
If you've ever taken any eternal concept and analyzed it you'll find that each subject has to follow a mortal path here in our lives- the ups the downs, the moments of weakness, and those of strength. to this I say, be strong and cary on!
Realism is also very important and itemizing wins for losses is ok to keep a grounded view- but don't be the burden giver to spread your lack of hope to the world around you. that's just sadness.
"love is eternal"- Vincent Van Gogh
If you've ever taken any eternal concept and analyzed it you'll find that each subject has to follow a mortal path here in our lives- the ups the downs, the moments of weakness, and those of strength. to this I say, be strong and cary on!
6.07.2011
Revitalizing
True story: I get to see my family in two days and my boyfriend is coming with me. Super exciting!
Also I've made a decision as far as academics go and It looks like the paralegal program is calling my name. Which means- I'll be taking mostly night classes over the next two years and I will be taking summer classes the next two summers in a row- but finally at the end of all of that I will be able to work in the field, which will be cool.
More in the good news dept- I'll be a full time employee at my job starting July 1st which includes benefits such as medical insurance- Bueno!
Lots of really cool things are happening my world- and I can't help but be intensely grateful for those things. I have lots of opportunities to learn things- and I need to capitalize on each of them. I feel like I have a better grasp on the future than I've ever had- which is exciting.
.... "I can do all things through christ, who strengtheneth me"
So I know that that is the ultimate AA verse- but honestly, it's so much more than overpowering addictions and the natural man- its harnessing the inner divinity and focusing it in a way that the impossible can be done. which is, in its self, a miracle.
I received a plant about a month ago- I thought I had surely killed it because all of the blossoms had wilted- through my detailed attention and careful approach I was able to bring that sucker back to full health. I felt as if I had conquered something. WONDERFUL!
Also I've made a decision as far as academics go and It looks like the paralegal program is calling my name. Which means- I'll be taking mostly night classes over the next two years and I will be taking summer classes the next two summers in a row- but finally at the end of all of that I will be able to work in the field, which will be cool.
More in the good news dept- I'll be a full time employee at my job starting July 1st which includes benefits such as medical insurance- Bueno!
Lots of really cool things are happening my world- and I can't help but be intensely grateful for those things. I have lots of opportunities to learn things- and I need to capitalize on each of them. I feel like I have a better grasp on the future than I've ever had- which is exciting.
.... "I can do all things through christ, who strengtheneth me"
So I know that that is the ultimate AA verse- but honestly, it's so much more than overpowering addictions and the natural man- its harnessing the inner divinity and focusing it in a way that the impossible can be done. which is, in its self, a miracle.
I received a plant about a month ago- I thought I had surely killed it because all of the blossoms had wilted- through my detailed attention and careful approach I was able to bring that sucker back to full health. I felt as if I had conquered something. WONDERFUL!
5.30.2011
Speak now or forever hold your peace
I'm becoming a quiet person. I think it has everything to do with the fact that when I say the things I'm thinking or feeling people get so hyped up about them that it's not even worth talking some times.
Can I be mad? Should I be mad? or is this ultimate frustration just a natural man thing?
I feel like a wild animal being tamed roped and muzzled- for what purpose?
See here are things that I can do- I can in the moment act rational and be calm- but after that moment of communication I wanna go somewhere that I can scream.
I think I might just need a quiet moment of collection. to get centered and focused on what is really important.
Q. Why can't people just let others be?
A. Because everything you are has an impact on the world around you.
Can I be mad? Should I be mad? or is this ultimate frustration just a natural man thing?
I feel like a wild animal being tamed roped and muzzled- for what purpose?
See here are things that I can do- I can in the moment act rational and be calm- but after that moment of communication I wanna go somewhere that I can scream.
I think I might just need a quiet moment of collection. to get centered and focused on what is really important.
Q. Why can't people just let others be?
A. Because everything you are has an impact on the world around you.
5.23.2011
Dealing with it all.
Step one.
Luckily we're only expected to progress at the rate that we can.
Luckily our father in heaven knows our intentions, hearts, and desires so well that he can guide us in our infantile attempts at perfection and charity.
Even though we are these potential wonders- we trip and fall like a baby. Our knees are weak and our attempts at loviing perfectly, aren't perfect at all. We hold grudges, we forget to forgive instead of forgiving and forgetting, and we let our choice of offense stand between us and what we could become.
So we've created this industry of learning how to deal and cope. People have studied the mentality of our being for generations. We trust these sources to tell us what is healthy, what is right, and help us to feel how we need to feel- when the answer is so much closer and cheaper than that.
Step two.
Luckily this Father in heaven knows us well enough to create plans that compensate for our undoubted failures, U turns and lost direction. Not only that, but he created a way to return to the path. A way to let all of our offenses, hurt feelings, and bad choices get the attention and help that they need. So what is this? Our savior, Jesus Christ? Wait... he doesn't just erase sin? TIME OUT! he overcame the world? ... the whole world? All the bad people? All the unknowing failures? All the trips? and even the times when it's so hard to forgive because it HURT SO BAD? ... yea! He lived for us, perfectly. Yea he suffered all our hurts- even the ones where people did things that disrespected us. Even for when we were the ones that were doing the disrespecting. ok- so he loves us this much. He knew we'd trip- he's there to pick us up.
Step three.
Trust him, let him, and have faith to allow all of that to happen.
Step four.
Don't be a grump. Love others. Love him.
...Its really that simple. (We're really that loved and blessed)
Luckily we're only expected to progress at the rate that we can.
Luckily our father in heaven knows our intentions, hearts, and desires so well that he can guide us in our infantile attempts at perfection and charity.
Even though we are these potential wonders- we trip and fall like a baby. Our knees are weak and our attempts at loviing perfectly, aren't perfect at all. We hold grudges, we forget to forgive instead of forgiving and forgetting, and we let our choice of offense stand between us and what we could become.
So we've created this industry of learning how to deal and cope. People have studied the mentality of our being for generations. We trust these sources to tell us what is healthy, what is right, and help us to feel how we need to feel- when the answer is so much closer and cheaper than that.
Step two.
Luckily this Father in heaven knows us well enough to create plans that compensate for our undoubted failures, U turns and lost direction. Not only that, but he created a way to return to the path. A way to let all of our offenses, hurt feelings, and bad choices get the attention and help that they need. So what is this? Our savior, Jesus Christ? Wait... he doesn't just erase sin? TIME OUT! he overcame the world? ... the whole world? All the bad people? All the unknowing failures? All the trips? and even the times when it's so hard to forgive because it HURT SO BAD? ... yea! He lived for us, perfectly. Yea he suffered all our hurts- even the ones where people did things that disrespected us. Even for when we were the ones that were doing the disrespecting. ok- so he loves us this much. He knew we'd trip- he's there to pick us up.
Step three.
Trust him, let him, and have faith to allow all of that to happen.
Step four.
Don't be a grump. Love others. Love him.
...Its really that simple. (We're really that loved and blessed)
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